*+^I NEED AN EXPLANATION.not an i love you.*+^

U came to help me when i was drowning,in a pool of hatred and vengeance.of sadness and despair.U held me by the hand...and led me out slowly.I was afraid,yet you gave me confidence and took me out into the big bad world.I thought i was alone...u gave me the confidence to know that i wasn't.You introduced me to the loving friend you had in her.She,too,accepted me with open arms...and an open mind.Thank you.
We went through ups and downs.Lows and highs.Love and more love.We grew close.Very close.But now u dun give me what i want.Am i done with?U just tell me to leave and i can't say no...yet i can't tell you how much it cuts a deep deep slice out of my heart. I can't bring myself to say it to you cause I can't bear to see your expression.and you will give me a good reason which will not satisfy me,but will shut me up.I almost lose my life for you.fallin out.u ditch me.and i'm left scared and alone at an unknown place.i would never do that to a friend...why do u??I need to know what i mean to you and yes,i'm truly sorry that it is now of all times that i have to bring it up.but it's been eating me up for like a week.Dun get me wrong...it's not bout u n her...it's about u n me.and like i say...dun say u love me if u dun.cause i dun think u do.i wouldn be like this with sum1 i love.i need an explanation.not an i love you.bye.