*+^hehehe*+^

am i an idealistic asshhole r wot?
im jus hoppin frm d pan 2 d fire....one horrible situation to another n i jus think im gonna explode!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man life really sucks...
referrin 2 an earlier post....y do u guys judge me?if u hear stuff keep it in or take it out dude trust me r dun trust me tok to me r dun tok to me but dun deceive me n dun preach cz hey it won't work.choose hu u wanna choose no hard feelings....
ppl say"dun tell anyone!"....duz tht have any meanin nemore?i trust ppl 4 a reason they've all ditched me n left me in d lurch...
u smile n hug n laff.....y dis shit f d fakeness jus 4get it!
ul BITCH behind my backs fight over small stupid things n jus act really weird wen i ask ul say "nothing ya!"and then u turn around n bitch...i was an idealistic asshole to think ppl wud believe me...ppl hu i tht were my best frnds....ppl hu i tht i cud turn to in times like these...it's like...now i've got NO ONE to turn to...no...it's not self pity....it's my side which u dunno....dun wanna noe...
u jus gna blast n erupt n pour molten lava n me in d form f words n me n i jus stay there rooted to the spot everyday wen heck i dun even rem wt i did but the little that i have to offer is true u dun believe that either yeh i'm tired f tellin ul n explainin maself.....im at a loss wt do i do cz im jus so exhausted......hell....im comin 2 ya...yeh....d idealistic asshole...tata....god bless....

*+^STEP INTO MA SHUZ*+^

i dun understand how people can just judge others...like..."yeah she sux"...or.."she is a BITCH!!!"
step into their shoes....
step into my shoes....
for a day.
see how my life are...what im goin thru...
im tired...exhausted n worn out...of bein JUDGED...MISUNDERSTOOD...
Ppl dunno me....or my intentions...what i think feel and hope....
everywhere i turn there's misunderstandings...hatred...confusion...suspicion...
why??
what have I dun....what has anyone done?
tht der will be such confusion n awkwardness wid sum....such love for sum....such hatred for sum...in 4 mnths...
all i ask is...HEAR ME OUT...WHT I GTA SAY...Wont take much time...don walk away...
i love u all!!!!!no one less no one more.....
but please don judge me....u dunno wt this gurlz goin thru...gimme a chance...ill earn ur luv back..i'll do anything....ANYTHING at all.....cz ur tooooo good 2 lose....
mmmmmmmuuuuuuuuuuuuaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!
luv ya.....
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
to
agr
razmatazmajjargas...
dey no hu dey r.....LOVE U ppl!!!!!!
n all d d oders

*+^a big secret!!*+^

have u ever hidden something for like 10 years???seemed like u forgot it...and then ka-boom...its back-------->>><<<-----
yeah....thts what is happening to me...
a HUGE...and i mean...H-U-G-E...secret....came back to haunt me...in my dreams....my days nights and it's gonna kill me cause there is no way i can deal with it....
it eats me up.it angers me.i couldn't remember exactly what happene...how dumb am i???is it so hard to remember stuff like that....??
i can't talk to my mom about it and there is no 1 else who will give me the support and love i need...
I NEED...
H-eartfelt sympathy
E-motional support
L-ove
P-rayers
i need it...
help me
cause ...
i don't think i will make it alone...
tata...